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My sleep schedule is still horribly off. Also I am a massive procrastinator.

I have to have a paper and a discussion prepared for my Monday class every week, and every week I finish it between work ending at 1 pm, and class starting at 6. This past weekend I thought I would get a headstart and start my homework Sunday night, which kind of backfired since I was exhausted by 9 pm. I got a good chunk of it done, so that I only have a bit to finish after work today.

Unfortunately my body was not convinced, and I woke up about every two hours last night, convinced that Everything Is Going To Be Bad. One of those times I even thought, hey if its 5 am, maybe I’ll get up and work on it a bit and I can nap after work. Nope, it was 2 am.

I’m not entirely sure why I put off things that aren’t all that difficult. I have a similar problem with my knitting and quilting projects. I get really excited about something, and work on it every day for a week, then I get busy at work or have a paper due, and either abandon what I was doing or work at a snails pace from then on.

The Spanish Peacock shawl being the latest example of this. It feels like I work on it all the time, and it never looks any bigger. Boo.

I also have a small red bump on my shoulder, which I thought may have been acne, but since its been over a week, my brain just suggested MAYBE ITS MELANOMA. Great. What the hell is wrong with me.

Its 1:06 AM. And I can’t sleep. As in wide awake.

I fall asleep earlier than this, normally with the light on, and a book open in my hand. Only once in a while I can’t fall asleep.

The house is quiet, and even though the cats and husband are sound asleep, I still feel the need to tiptoe around the house.

When I can’t sleep, I want to organize everything. I want to clean, I want to throw junk out, and de-clutter. Unfortunately I can’t right now, and I probably won’t be motivated to do it in the morning. I get the need every so often to change things around. When I was a kid I would move the furniture around in my bedroom, and my parents would tease me about it. I still do the same thing to this day. I need a change to keep me sane.

The shawl I have been working on is frustrating me. Despite knitting thousands of stitches around and around and around, it never gets any fucking bigger (or so it seems). It will hopefully look something like this when its done, and I will wear it over a charcoal gray pea coat as I walk through the woods with lovely fall colors around me (this probably will only happen in my head.)

I just knit a few stitches while waiting for the photo to upload. The lighting is awful, and normally I would delete a picture so yellow, but I like it at the moment.

Maybe I’ll get a haircut in the morning, maybe it will be enough change for now.

DSC_3405, originally uploaded by Ashley Lankenau.

I started this sweater about a month ago, and it has been a wonderful experience. This is my first time working with malabrigo. It is just as squishy and soft as everyone says, and the color is wonderful.

Russell bought me the yarn for my birthday. All I told him was that I needed 5 hanks for a sweater, and that he could pick out a color. It was a fun way to get the yarn I wanted and still be surprised at the same time. Its called velvet grapes and its beautiful.